Well Parenting isn't for everyone

So I have obviously been M.I.A. Not that there are so many of you that it is a big deal but still...

Anyways, my life has been a little more than hectic. Almost chaotic but not over the top yet...
With our wedding about 3 months away and almost NOTHING done *ok thats not true but I still feel like that* and everything else to deal with, I just felt overwhelmed.

I found out my Maid of Honor is going to be 6 months pregnant at my wedding. I had to track down and beat my sister to death to get her to comply and buy a dress. And I am starting school in July. All of this happened with the blink of an eye.

I have been working more than usual at work and spending less time with my baby boy so he is acting out (or at least thats what I am blaming his rambunctious behavior on). He has become this screaming little banshee that runs around acting like a nutjob from the 4th floor at the local hospital (thats where they keep our crazies). Now not only do I get to get showers and baths with toys floating around I also find cups, plates, a hair brush, a house key, and some other object that undoubtedly came from something important, in my tub. I have more sip cups than I am even sure what to do with and my little technician has managed to take them apart and lose the little plastic/rubber thing that goes in the lid to keep them from leaking... We are potty training because he hates wearing a diaper but he refuses to use his potty for anything other than dumping said sip cups into the little bucket thingy. I came in to find that he had a nice combination of milk and apple juice waiting for me. MMM yummy!

I had to fire my babysitter because well... She just wasn't cut out for the job. She was a great friend of mine but after she gave birth to her little girl she must have lost her mind. And while I am very sympathetic to new parents because I know that it is difficult, I will not allow someone to hit my child. NO ONE! NOT. EVEN. ME! So needless to say when I got to anonymous reports from different people of her spanking him for wanting to take a nap... I let her go. I handled myself pretty well considering. I did not accuse her of it I asked her about it. She told me that yes in fact she had spanked him because he wanted to go to his crib to take a nap and since she wasn't ready to put her baby down she wouldn't allow him and when he got mad she spanked him. I asked if he had done something out of anger that required a spanking she said no he just whined (which toddlers do just look here for proof!). I told her that I do not parent my son by spanking him and therefor she should not either. Her response... Well parenting isn't for everyone now is it? Are you f-ing kidding me? I mean really?!

I told her to leave and now am one friend less. I can't believe that some people really think it is ok to hit a child... I mean HIT a child. She admitted it and didn't even seem phased by the fact that I was clearly pissed. I found out that she had also been smacking his hands when he used his fingers to push food on his fork. FOR HEAVENS SAKE HE IS 19 MONTHS OLD!!!!!!!! He has no idea how to properly use a fork. He is learning. He does a great job but still he needs some help with things like spaghetti noodles. I mean DANG! I am 23 years old and still have to use my finger sometimes!!!! The day that it all happened he literally had a mental break down. He was crying and freaking out all day and everytime I tried to do anything he was attached to my hip. So I knew that he was going through some weird stuff.

It broke my heart knowing that I had subjected my baby to that. I should have known better. I couldn't have because she was a great friend and a great stepmom to her stepson or at least I thought... Apparently I was wrong about that. And her....

Right now my brother is watching him for me. Jonathan loves his uncle so much and is doing well considering. It doesnt make it suck any less.